TWO KINDS OF PEOPLE

I've just learned the way to overcome writers block.  All you have to do is, well, just be an emotional wreck which seems to happen about once a month for me... hmmm, very strange. So, anyway, I'm realizing that the drama queen emotional side of me is what kicks out my best blog posts. It's all about pouring your heart out, and if being on my period is what drives my passion, then so be it. It's about time I find something good about that time of month.  I shall now embrace my womenhood more fully than ever. 

  
Now if I could just get my husband to do the same... :)

There are two kinds of people. What I AM, and what I am NOT.

What I am NOT: I'm not the type of person that hides the way they're feeling very well. I know that this can be a good thing, but also a bad thing. Sometimes it's good not to share EVERYTHING, especially when it's negative. Focusing your energy on the bad things is not going to make life any easier. Learning to find solutions can bring you closer to achieving your goals and overcoming your trials. I heard a quote once by Charles Malik, "A great leader suffers in a hundred different ways and keeps his suffering to himself."
The bad side to always keeping things to yourself is,  you'll never allow others to know how you truly feel, and as a result may never have the opportunity of helping them. Sometimes it's just nice to hear someone say, "oh yes, I've been there" or "I feel the SAME way". 

What I AM: I am the type of person that is VERY open and will share every detail about the way I'm feeling. Some people may not like this because they'd rather just hear the good. I like to vent, I feel so much better when I can just get my feelings out. And sometimes it's not even venting, it's just being honest about the way things are. Life can be hard, we all know that, but why not open up a little and allow others to relate and know that what they are feeling is normal and okay. I always appreciate it when people are open, it allows me to feel a little LESS crazy :).  Writing and talking about your thoughts and feelings can bring clarity to problems, and perhaps helping you figure out what's really bothering you.

Let me give you an example here, which happens to be from my mission once again. The reason why I refer to my mission so much is because I learned ALOT of important life lessons within that period of time. Okay so, I had a companion that was great in every way. She seemed to be perfect, everyone I ever met who knew her had nothing but good things to say about her. We got along great except I always felt like there was something wrong with me for struggling so much.  I was tired, homesick, discouraged, overwhelmed, and just felt completely inadequate.  So, when I tried telling her the way I was feeling, I noticed that she was getting annoyed with me. She then said something that I'll never forget, "gosh, do you just hate your mission or something?"
 I didn't know what to say, but I do know that when she said that to me, it made me feel even worse. I thought, wow, I must be such a bad missionary if I'm having these feelings, especially since it was obvious she could not relate.  In her opinion I was just dwelling on the negative and she was sick of hearing it. In my opinion, all I needed to hear was, "oh, I know it can be hard, I've felt the same way, but you're doing great, it just takes some time, you can do this, I'll help you, being so far away from home can be rough, and the language is overwhelming, but I promise, you'll get it".  

So the moral of the story is, there are two kinds of people and sometimes those two people don't always mesh well, but it doesn't make either one of them wrong. Some people are great examples of living a positive life, and the others are good at opening up which can be helpful to those who are dealing with the same issues.