House Update (3rd Edition)~Kitchen and Dining Room

Okay, now for the kitchen and dinging room before and after pics. If you're new here and would like to see other pics of our home remodeling then click HERE. I'm posting one room at a time.

Kitchen and Dining Room BEFORE

And AFTER

• We tore out the wall dividing the dining room and kitchen.
• Put in TONZ more light fixtures
• Moved the back door over to make the kitchen bigger.
• Then got new everything, cabinets, appliances, added two little windows.
• Refinished the floor, using a little darker shade of stain.
• Painted the walls.
• Had a TV built in, not sure if you can see it (it's above the cabinet on the far left wall/ this also doubles as our security camera. I can turn it on and see our backyard, it's nice to have when the kids are playing outside and I'm cleaning or cooking inside.

BEFORE

AFTER

BEFORE

AFTER

What is Beauty?

Yesterday's post brought in a lot of really good feedback, some positive, and some REALLY negative. My first reaction was the urge to fire back, then my second was to ignore it and TRY not let it bother me, and my third reaction was to let it inspire me to write this post. I have a really hard time holding things in. Talking about it and getting the chance to explain myself, makes me feel sooo much better. Maybe this is a bad thing, but I don't care, I'm going to do it anyway.
So, due to this really mean comment someone left me yesterday I've chosen to not allow anonymous comments anymore. I don't need mean people leaving me comments who don't even have the guts to reveal who they are.
First of all, I'm really sorry if I offended anyone by talking about horoscopes and patriarchal blessings as if they were equally the same. I was simply trying to relate to the masses. Not everyone is LDS and not everyone even knows what a patriarchal blessing is, so I was just trying to find things that people could relate to as far as what they choose to believe.
And now for my real purpose for this post. The comment that inspired this was "why did people laugh when you said you wanted to go on a mission? Please don't say something like, they thought I was too pretty".
Hah! Well, ya know what? That was not the reason AT ALL.
If people weren't so quick to judge then maybe they'd learn a little something.  Without going into too much detail, all I have to say is,  you NEVER know what people have been through. Coming from a broken home, and moving every 6 months didn't exactly give me any kind of stability a child needs. I was always changing schools in the middle of the school year, which of course put a lot of stress on me, trying to make friends, getting comfortable in my new area and  adjusting to the new school program. I always felt behind in everything, while the rest of the class seemed to be doing fine. I began to think that I wasn't very smart, and my grades made me believe I would never amount to much.
Of course I'm grateful for these experiences now because I can see how it's made me stronger as a person. It took a long time for me to believe that I wasn't stupid. So with this bad self image brought a lot of bad life choices. Most everyone in my family dropped out of high school, got into drugs or alcohol, never went to college... it was all I knew. I believed that I wasn't anything special and that I probably would never do anything great in my life. So serving a mission was the last thing people would have expected me to do, and it was the last thing I ever thought to do.
 After all these years of feeling this way about myself, suddenly a light turned on! I was starting to realize my true potential, and I didn't have to settle for less. I COULD be amazing, I started to BELIEVE that I could do ANYTHING I wanted! Learning the truth about myself literally SET ME FREE from the bondage of self doubt.
Here is a picture of me on my mission with my natural hair color, no tan, glasses, and about 20 pounds heavier. I wasn't anything too exciting to look at. And who ever said that "pretty" people don't serve missions anyway? Each and every one of my mission companions were GORGEOUS! They didn't choose to go on a mission because they couldn't get married. They chose to go because they simply wanted to make a difference in someone's life.

I don't think I'm any prettier than the average person. Anyone can wear make up, hair extensions, false eyelashes, body shapers to look thinner, get braces on their teeth and bleach them to make them white, color their hair, and take a good picture.
What is beauty? Well, we all know that true beauty comes from within. I don't think there is anything wrong with enhancing the way you look in some ways. The bad thing is when you think your looks are ALL you have.
I've learned that there is more to life than LOOKS. I love to share tips on hair, skin, and weight loss. It's fun and it makes us women feel good to pamper ourselves and to FEEL pretty, but it's only one small part of life. I also share my thoughts and life experiences that don't have anything to do with beauty. It's all about balance, and not getting too obsessed with any one thing.
Anyway, I feel so much better getting that off my chest.
Thank you all for listening :)

Finding Ourselves In This Journey Called Life

I've been doing a little soul searching lately. It seems that we all go through this from time to time. Wondering if we're fulfilling our purpose, or living up to the expectations of motherhood. Are we making each day count? Are we sharing our time and talents with others? Are we working hard to DEVELOP our talents? Are we using our talents for the purpose of serving others, or for the purpose of serving ourselves?
I know what OUR purpose is, but I also know that each one of us has something extra special to offer the world, and whether or not we choose to fulfill it, is up to us.

In hopes to shed a little light on the subject, I started going through some of my old journals, studying my patriarchal blessing, and even reading my horoscope. By the way, what is your opinion on horoscopes? Do you believe in them? I'm still not sure if I really do. I would LIKE to, it would sure explain a lot about myself, which seems to be something that I'm constantly trying to figure out.  Perhaps it will ALWAYS be something that is not so clear. I guess it's all part of this journey we call LIFE.

It's funny, because everything that my horoscope told me, seemed to be VERY comforting, and in fact answered many of my questions. My NEEDS as a Pisces, is: A purpose, so as to focus thoughts and avert boredom. Quiet intervals, to foster a sense of identity and peace. To feel ENCOURAGED, trusted and loved. Pisces needs to stick to a schedule or they'll get lost in their own dreams. Too much regimentation, however, will crush their creativity.

"THE TRUTH SHALL MAKE YOU FREE" John 8:32

Horoscopes and patriarchal blessings are very interesting. If you choose to believe them, it unwraps the truth about ones self, and in a sense, setting us free to do MORE with the gifts/ talents we've been given. It enhances faith in our own abilities, giving us the reassurance that, YES, we are special, and even GOOD at certain things. It gives us affirmations of what we can ultimately become, and perhaps unveiling the hidden obstacles holding us back.

RISING ABOVE 
I laughed when I read in my horoscope that I NEED to feel encouraged :) I've noticed that about myself and I believe it's a weakness. It holds me back a little in life, provoking me to second guess myself A LOT!  I remember when I first started telling people I wanted to serve an LDS Mission. People literally laughed, thinking I was joking.  This caused me to really doubt my abilities and think maybe I was fooling myself at thinking I could ACTUALLY do something like this. I knew I had to rise above the negative comments and go forth with my endeavor. It's not easy for me to ignore the nay sayers, but I know it's the only way to succeed.

COMPARING OURSELVES
I think it's human nature to compare ourselves with others, and in so doing, we tend to compare our weaknesses with others strengths. Why not be happy with who we are and what we have been given? I ask myself this all the time. It's hard to always be aware of the unique abilities we each have, and not be jealous of others gifts. I'm always doing this to myself, not realizing at the moment the harm it's doing to my self confidence. I read other blogs and I'm completely blown away by the talent these other women have. I can't help but feel less as a person, completely inadequate in every way. Comparing yourself to others is guaranteed to bring you down and make you feel worthless. Therefore leading you in the opposite direction of finding true fulfillment in life.

HURRY LESS

In a world that's ever changing and clocks that seem to be going 100 miles a minute, it's hard for us to take time to relax and enjoy the little things. Maybe I should just speak for myself. I'm constantly trying to remind myself to slow down and relax a little, always feel like there's something more I should be doing,  like there is never enough time in a day to accomplish it all. I'm reminded of the quote by President Ezra Taft Benson, "When we put God first, all other things fall into place."

Hurry Up and Slow Down

SEASONS OF LIFE
 I know I'm in the season of motherhood and that in itself is something to be grateful for and proud of. I also believe very strongly that it's so important for us mothers to have other hobbies that don't include wiping bums and making bottles. It's important for us to set aside time for ourselves to refine our minds and develop talents.

"Water cannot be drawn from an empty well, and if you are not setting aside a little time for what replenishes you, you will have less and less to give to others, even to your children."
-Elder M. Russell Ballard

I want to try harder to fulfill my purpose by allowing the truth to set me free, rising above the negativity, quit comparing myself to others, and hurry less in my season of motherhood.

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