Do you ever have those days when you think, "man, I SUCK at everything"?
Well, today's THAT day for me. Could have something to do with comparing myself to all those other AMAZING bloggers out there. I love blogging, and I love reading other blogs, meeting new people, and am learning a lot in the process, but sometimes, I let my insecurities get the best of me. I feel like that girl last night on American Idol, who completely abandoned her group right before their performance because she was afraid she was going to mess up.
At times, I think... am I really cut out to do the things I aspire to? Why can't I SEE my potential, where is it hiding? I know that if we only had a GLIMPSE of what we were truly capable of, then, experiencing any kind of self doubt would be a thing of the past.
I love to DO alot of things, like writing, singing, crafts, cooking, ect. but have not yet found the one thing I'm REALLY good at. Perhaps I'm only meant to be a little good at a lot of things.
It does feel nice to get my feelings off my chest, even if it doesn't always come out as beautifully as you other bloggers.
I know when we have days like this, that there's always a lesson to be learned. Don't quite know what it is at the moment, but sure I'll figure it out eventually.
Tomorrow's another day, and I'm thirsty anyway, so BRING ON THE RAIN! I love that song :)
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Sweet Sweet girl, I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. I wish at your young age I had had 1/4 of the foresight, and talent you exhibit. You are amazing in so many ways. I know everyone gets in the Downy dumps, we are human, but all you need to do is look at you're adoring husband, your beautiful children, and see your talents & accomplishments.
Being a Mother, Wife, daughter, friend, caregiver and all of the other hundred titles that intales is without a doubt the hardest job in the world, sometimes there just is not enough left for you at the end of the day. You are perfect, God doesn't make junk! I love you and am so blessed to have you as a friend, you are a remarkable young woman, please never forget that!
xoxo
Cheri
Um, I feel like this almost EVERYDAY! I too feel like I like to do many things, but I am not great at any of them. Sometimes I just wish I rocked at something! I love the song you shared...Isn't it so true. I bet tomorrow you'll wake up refreshed and ready to take on another day! I'm sure there are so many people that look at you, think you've got it all together, and feel insecure! We all do this! Especially when we get just a wee glimpse into someones life via blogs....sometimes I need to remember that it is just a glimpse! Blogs always look great....love that you shared this. It's nice to know I'm not alone in having those yuck days.
I think you are amazing!
I think I suck everyday.
Then I visit bloggers who not only blog but sing, craft and cook....
then I know I do (-:
Lord... I'm having one of those YEARS. Thank you for sharing, I'm sort of glad I'm not the only one. I hope you have much better days ahead!
One of my favorite songs EVER! :) I know how you feel... I feel like that all the time! Just remember all of these experiences are teaching you more about yourself everyday. And who says you have to be really great at any one thing? The fact that you put yourself out there & try to inspire other women is really great! I think you are very brave and that is really great! Keep your head up. :) xo
Trust me when I say I think everyone has those feelings now and again. I think with blogging if you are true to yourself and yourself only then your blog is going to shine. Because just following you for two days and looking through your blog...you shine my dear.
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We all have those days! You are not alone....and I am a new follower.
I only follow really, really great blogs. ;+)
Yes, we all have those days! And girl, I don't even feel like I'm a little bit good at anything! So you're already ahead of me that way :) I hope you have a fabulous weekend!
I feel the exact same way. Every day.
Thinking, "OH MY GOD, what am I doing here? I can't compete with that. I'm not as interesting as her. I'm not as funny, or pretty, or talented, or whatever. In fact, I'm getting pretty effing boring."
& then I take a mallet & play whack-a-mole with those emotions until I convince myself that I'm rad again ;)
You are doing just fine & you are amazing. & gorgeous. & you know how I love pretty people.
Something like "the jack of all trades, but master of none..." I have felt like that always given my many career changes---this is the only year where I think I may be on to something. Hang in there girly--I think your FABULOUS!
Thanks for keeping it real!
I am so with you. I don't think I have any special talent. I like to think I'm a jack of all trades. But I can never master anything. I was close at the piano but then life got in the way or something... don't worry though!! There is more to it than being good at one thing.
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I think we all have those moments Crystal. But I hope you know that you are amazing! And there are 106 other public followers that agree. Keep at it girl, you are AWESOME!
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Stopping by from SITS - hope today was better than yesterday! And yes, I have those days too!
It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I think it's normal to second guess yourself, otherwise you don't push yourself of pursue other greater things. You seem on the right track to me!
I think it as a universal sensation. I am currently experiencing it myself and even when logic tells me my funhouse mirror* is dusty; I still argue with myself that it is as clear.
( I believe every woman is given a distorted funhouse mirror when they hit puberty. We never see ourselves mentally and physically as others do.)
Hope today is better. It could be worse; your house could look like mine right now...
My heart goes out to you because I know just how you're feeling; I've been in this boat MANY times. I just found your blog and while I don't know you, something tells me you are very good at a lot of things. Based on the information on your profile, you sound as though you are a firm believer in your faith, as well as a wonderfully happy mommy and wife. Not to mention a driven, determined woman (hello, marathon!! Remind yourself of your achievements and you'll realize how special you are already!!
Mari-Ann
Counting Coconuts
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I just have to say that there is something you are VERY good at, better at than I think most anyone I have ever met, and that is being a WONDERFUL, KIND, LOVING FRIEND. Seriously Crystal you have a gift for loving people and that my friend is a gift I think surpasses any other.
I admire you, Crystal, beyond MEASURE for your candidness here. I feel like that almost 100% of the time (!), especially as it relates to comparing to others w/blogging. The difference is that I'm too wimpy to admit it! I think I would do so much better if I was more "raw" and exposed my insecurities. However, it's in my blood to shine on the outside, even when I'm doubting myself on the in. I'm sure this post was very therapeutic for you! And, look at all of the compliments. We share SOO much in common, it's not even funny. I want to go on a mission trip SO badly, but it would be near impossible w/the 4 rugrats at this stage of my life. I've visited and briefly lived in 10 other countries; most of which were 3rd world. I'm soo itching to get back there, sometime. Also, I am an avid runner, but am so scared to attempt a marathon.
Hugs, and I'm a loyal follower. I pray that you have the desire to follow me as well. Cheers! Kat
My dear Chrystal, I really know how you feel. It´s been a whole week for me now that I have these feelings about myself. But it´s okay.I don´t want to talk about myself. ;o)
You are so awesome(!) and talented and you are following your Goals and achieve them!!! I know we haven´t met in person yet, but I think I´ve got to know you a little through the things you shared. Just look at your great Blog and the way you are writing. It is always so interesting for me to read your Posts. You have such great ideas! I´ve learned that it is not good to put to much pressure on yourself. I´ve always did that, because I thought others were better then me. You are a beautiful and very talented Woman. And you have such a beautiful Family.
Fühl Dich umarmt!
Verena
Girl, you ARE AMAZING and I'm pretty sure that other people compare themselves to you and feel the same way. Seriously, you're gorgeous, talented, have a heart of gold...I could go on and on, ya know. ;-)
I truly believe that God gives you the desires of your heart. He put them there and in time He will bring them to fruition. Trust in Him and keep on following your dreams!!
~melody~
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If it's any consolation, I've got many years on ya age-wise and yet I still have not found one thing that I can say I'm really good at. This has been a source of frustration for many, many years. Tried at least 5 different types of jobs; was lackluster in all - hobby wise: I've painted, make ceramics for three years, tried my hand all jewelry making, took some sign language classes, now doing belly dancing (only fairly well)...it does get depressing after a while, but sometimes you just gotta put on some blinders and forge ahead. Definitely true with blogging. Not sure if you read my "fringe" post (aka one bitter blog post) from over a week ago, but I was feeling the same way.
Oh, yes, girl...you are not alone. Your comment about not being excellent at any one thing, but being good enough at a lot of little things...I was dealing with that same feeling last week. It's hard - especially when you see others being amazing at lots of things! But I take pride in my role as mom, wife, sister, daughter and friend, and I try to remember that we have different seasons in our lives. I just found your blog today through SITS, and from what I have seen so far, you are fantastic! :)
Crystal, all of us bloggers feel this way some time or another. Comparing is not what God wants us to do but of course, it is so natural. We all do it. You are wonderful in your own right so keep doing what you are doing and keep it uniquely you. That's what is most important.
I love your blog and think you are a beautiful person!
Thank you for the comment on my blog. I can completely relate to you. It stinks when you are trying so hard to find where you shoudl be in live and not finding the answer. I know tons of things I'd love to be great at, but unfortunately am not.
I have felt this way, you know that from my blog, but I can promise it passes. Sometimes I think we feel the most inadequate right before we are going to stretch ourselves into something new and unfamiliar and we are letting fear take the place of faith. I am grateful you are an honest woman and showing your feelings will help many. Loves, hilary.
I've been having that week too. Just dragging and wondering what it all means, thank God for His love, eh?
I totally feel this!
I too am a little good at a lot of things!
I count that as a blessing!
it makes us well rounded girl - embrace that because LOTS of people aren't! ;-)
TRUST ME
you've seen them...you've met them... chances are... you've rolled ur eyes at them! ha ha
hope ur day gets better! :)
I understand how you feel. I am a little good at a lot of things but not REALLY good at any one thing. My mom can always out do me which really kind of sucks. Are we supposed to be competitive with our moms. Here is her typical com\mment, "Oh,that's nice, but it could be better if..." Ugh! We just have to learn to not listen to the feelings that Satan plants.
Well, I'm a new follower to your blog, and obviuosly a little late with this comment...but I had to say something.
From what I can see (which is a lot because I'm actually wearing my contacts today), you are AMAZING! Your blog is wonderful, poignant, funny, cute, and helpful.
I think we all have those feelings of inadequecy (I know it's a recurrent theme for me), and even more so when you put it all out there on a blog for the world to see.
The fact that you have 32 (now 33) comments telling you what en effing ROCK STAR you are, should tell you something.
I love your blog.
Oh - gosh... ALL the time. But don't sell yourself short. You have a WONDERFUL blog and I (for one) really love it. Keep up the great work! (But, yes - I know we all have those days. This too shall pass...)
i have those days too! don't get your head down. have faith in your self and strive to do the things your love. for me, being a mother is such a wonderful gift i've been given and I cherish it so. it keeps me going when i get bummed!
Love your site!!
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